I was walking home from work. The reason I was walking was to save the bus fare home for a loaf of bread for my family. I did not mind because they came first. Yes, I was broke. I wondered what the final outcome would be. I was as low as a man could get mentally, financially and spiritually. Was our daughter going to die? That is what all of the doctors told us would no doubt happen yet they took every cent we had. Discouraged? Of course. Who wouldn't be.

Then it happened.

The street filled with the going home from work traffic. I saw, thru the unshaded windows of the houses lighted Christmas trees and women busy preparing dinner for their families. I was weary and dejected. Suddenly everything was blocked out. No longer were there houses, streets lined with trees, automobiles whizzing by. I was standing alone IN THE ABSOLUTE, IN TOTAL LOVE! A man’s exquisite voice spoke to me out of the ABSOLUTE. But why did I find myself crying, my heart out while standing on this busy street? "You are sobbing for all of mankind", the voice said. I did not understand. The voice continued, "Man has not yet learned to LOVE. They want love proven for them and in this they live in continual doubt." I still did not understand. "Mankind has not yet learned to totally love so they "set up" their own limitations." I actually cried out, "Why, oh God, why is this happening to me?" The voice answered. "Jack, mankind creates its own thorns of doubt to walk upon but you are chosen to try to lessen the pricks of the thorns. Will man listen? Will they hear? Always, my son, they will want it proven for them and will heed not the voice of truth. Yet will you try, yes, you will try. Man is as a statue made of stone and it is such as you who will try to breath life into their stoneness. We will try to help you, we will try to help."

The exquisite beauty of the sunset absorbed me with THE SOUNDS OF ITS COLORS. I was in a moment of complete oneness with my God. I WAS EXPERIENCING TOTAL LOVE!

I have already told you some of this experience so why am I sharing it with you again? I will be very honest in what I have to say because I want to help you so much. MANKIND IS CONDITIONED TO BE INSENSITIVE YET IS CONSTANTLY SEEKING SENSITIVITY BUT ALWAYS ON HIS/HER TERMS! I have, many times, wondered why it felt necessary to create a problem out of a lesson I give instead of an attempt to be SENSITIVE as to why I wrote it. The reason for the constant doubting is due to a REFUSAL TO DO SOMETHING IN ORDER TO REMOVE THE DOUBTS. I have just, with much difficulty and many reservations, revealed, in greater detail than I ever have before, a very personal spiritual/psychic experience. Is there (as was once said to me), "That is just superstition." Is there a, "I don't believe a word of it." Is there a "That could never happen to me but if it did I would be stiff."

YOU YOURSELVES PREVENT YOUR OWN PERSONAL EXPERIENCE. Mankind seems to love to doubt and refuses to make an attempt to discover WHY HE CREATED THE DOUBTS IN THE FIRST PLACE, and then doing something about it. NOTHING BEGETS NOTHING!!

Lack of gratitude, lack of love, lack of acceptance degenerates into constant doubting. "Why doesn’t anything ever happen to me?" "Why isn’t it repeatable?" "Everyone else seems to get something but I never do." Over and over I have heard these things asked and said but I never hear, "WHAT AM I DOING TO EARN IT?"

Every instinct mankind has, be they religious or otherwise, ORIGINATES FROM HIS PSYCHIC BEING. These instincts are actually man's ability to UNDERSTAND WHAT TOTAL LOVE IS AND WHY. The difficulty with the present interest in the psychic and the demanded results is due to mankind still not outgrowing the idea that it must be done on his terms and the love showered on us, from spirit, goes begging. There are certain laws yet to be learned and understood. As soon as we learn to respect and act within these laws instead of always creating insurmountable problems regarding them we will get somewhere. If I died tomorrow I doubt very much if I would much interested in trying to "come thru" to someone just to try to satisfy their doubt of the moment. I am quite certain If I did "get thru" I WOULD SIMPLY CREATE ANOTHER DOUBT so would it be worth the effort.

Think on these things I have told you and then ask me how you should try to develop LOVE.

EXACTLY why was our daughter healed in an instant?

God Love Ya

Jack